Dichotomy

Life Among The Fallen

Here in this place not my own
Hasty decisions brought me here
Left without hope I am alone
A hollow shell filled with fears
Cast aside I have no home
Feeling self loathing and disgust
Nothing left of what I've known
Mentally, effectively handcuffed

Written 5-26-2014
©B. Alan Hart

Epilogue

A tremendous upheaval took place
Dislodging a life and moving it home
Joy
Love
Mistrust
Anger
Sadness
Acceptance
Dust of emotional tempest now settled
A life goes on, once more on its own

Written 5-17-2014
© 2014 B. Alan Hart

Rekindled

There are feelings that have been stirred
Bringing with them a new light to life
A light once thought forever darkened
Now it shines more brightly than before
No more looking back on a lonesome path
Eyes fixed firmly on the future lying ahead
Facing every challenge that may come
Your hand in mine once again

Written 3-9-2014
©2014 B. Alan Hart

A Walk Before Dawn

In the air is silence so profound
As the night quietly waits for dawn
Enraptured by beauty in this place
Steam rises from the gentle river
In search of something far better
Than the water's cold embrace
Freshly fallen snow muffles sound
Giving dawn a heartwarming peace
Along with a smile to cross my face

Written 2-2-2014
©2014 B. Alan Hart

Playing the Fool

Casually I sit here playing the fool
While everyone else is breaking the rules
Maybe if I tried to live their way
I wouldn't be sitting here alone today

Because lately there's a hate inside
Something that I've always had to hide
It's painful to admit I can't be free
When the only person that I hate is me

Though I've tried to change
I just can't find the peace of mind
I so desperately seek
Though I've tried to free
The side of me others seem to see
That side will not speak

Caught up in a cycle of sleepless nights
Wondering why I always do what's right
Capturing my stress in a balled up fist
What's my life worth if there's no risk?

If I could open up and strip my soul bare
I'd find a new life is waiting out there
If I hide my feelings just for others' sake
I'll keep on bending until I finally break

Though I've tried to smile
I mostly find I don't feel it inside
I feel certain I am fake
Though I've tried to see
The awesome man others say I am
That man may never wake

B. Alan Hart
Written 1-26-2014

Released

Closed off no longer, inspired by kindness
Trust awakens, new bonds are formed
A renewal of faith, the rebirth of hope
Feeling free once more, for now I am open

©2014 B. Alan Hart
Written 1-23-2014

Sometimes it's easy to convey feelings briefly. This poem is about friendship, and how it feels to find your walls coming down for someone else.